What do you do when you are sorely disappointed with what
God allows in your life? Where do you turn when you have begged God for something which seems reasonable, yet God's answer
is no? How do you react when you
cannot see what God is doing? When you
cannot see where he is going? When you
cannot figure out what he wants? When you
feel as if you can bear no more?
I have experienced a number of firsts the last few years, many
of which I did not want. Perhaps for the
first time in my life, I am now experiencing deep disappointment at what God is
allowing. I hesitated to
write this post. I usually find blogging
an outlet, but ever since my seventeen-year-old son Bradley was diagnosed with
a leukemia relapse last week, I have been unable to find release through
words. I can identify my underlying feelings,
but I have hesitated to admit them. It is hard to face being weak.
